someone up here said ‘can y’all please start recording your pieces’ so I thought I would give it a try with this poem that just ripped itself out of my [poem organ]. Let me know what you think <3
Corrugated. A favorite word of mine The way it feels percussing out my throat Bouncing off my tongue Ricocheting out my maw Tastes like metal like really really metal metal like those cool ass monster truck style little x’s grooved in the plate metal type metal Corrugated Corrugated metal Corrugated cardboard Corrugated edges of my heart made stronger on purpose I didn’t ask for this These extra layers of strength extra ribbing for texture and grip and protection and never for my pleasure this pain you foisted upon me this Harshening you Made sure to press on me you chose to press on me on purpose I didn’t ask for these corrugated tear-stained sheets, corrugated from being scrunched in my fists a silent scream ripping free even this - I didn’t ask for this - Is corrugated, the ripples of my voice folded back onto each other and Folded back and folded back until even I can’t hear my own dreams corrugated repetitions returning back to me I listen corrugated memories bursting at the seams I let them seep Rivulets Running down my ridges running through my fingers fluting through my ridges, my ridged edges, my corrugated edges, ridged, sharpened. My sweet curving edges made sharper, like teeth my corrugated heart made fierce made ridged made sharp made hard made metal made stronger made sharper made harsher made harder like Corrugated metal my heart Is not a construction material Made to make you… Made to make you whole. My heart is not a building block, a cornerstone, a keystone to stack upon, a whetstone to sharpen your lies, a touchstone to anchor your fantasies My heart is not a gemstone for you to calcify is not a brimstone for you to damn yourself with is not a last cry for salvation for your lost lost soul My heart Is not a tool to wrench your schemes into being My heart is not yours to have and hold and melt and mold and pound and fold and pound and fold and pound and fold and pound and fold and pound and fold into steel and cold and metal, Corrugated.
